All I wear are flates but lately I have been dying to wear heels, only problem, I cant walk in them and its frustrating. I own several pair of heels that it seems I have collected instead of worn so now I am challenging myself to wear heels. I believe that heels are sexy, fun, and make your legs look fabulous. Over the past couple of days while doing household work I have been wearing heels and I can easily say that its way harder then it looks and my feet are killing me.This is going to take alot of getting use to but im determined, wish me luck.

The Uhhhhhhhhhhh Feeling

Today I feel not myself. All day today i have avoided mirrors, looking at myself, and thinking about the way i look. For the past week every time i look at myself I feel absolutely horrid, disgusted, I feel like a big butterball mess and its frustrating. I hate when that feeling comes up of not being good enough, feeling ugly, self esteem issues pop up. I wish I could never feel this way I hate it. I feel like everyone is staring at my flaws and feels that I'm dumb or stupid. I just want to go in my bed pull the covers over my head and come out when I look better

Jiggaboos and Wannabe's; who are we?

The other day I watched Spike Lee's School Daze for the first time and while watching the movie I became torn and began to think to myself if  I had to be classed who would I be classed as, a jiggaboo or a wannabe? Well if it was just based on the surface looking at me  I would be a jiggaboo. Why?, Well for one my skin is of a darker shade, my hair is all natural, and last I don't see myself running behind a man or being his accessory like a nice watch or car. Well next thinking of how I dress, feel, and things that I see as  fun I might be a wannabe. I love shopping, doing my hair and makeup, and at times i guess i might be seen as a  little dingy lol, but then I think to myself but who isn't all of these things, who is to say that the jiggaboos weren't like that, who is to say that the Wannabes weren't into there books and about black power lol.At the end of the movie I was confused its like I know who I am but in the movie its like spike lee took who I am or how most women are and split it into two, there was the jiggaboo side and the Wannabe side, its like do you stay true to who you are or do you conform and be a watered down version of what you never will be? 

This image is a Callolilly drawing and it reminded me of what i was saying, do we stay true to who we are or become a watered down version of what we will never be even though the picture is of someone of a different race the message is still clear.